No More Excuses!!!

It amazes me how easy it is for me to talk myself out of what I want.  I'm not talking about a new pair of wedges ( I have a deep love for them) and a new dress, or even a cup of Starbucks. 

 I am talking about my 

DREAMS 

here.  

Yes, 

DREAMS!!! 

 As soon as I figure out what I want, my thoughts go straight to how it won't work, or won't happen, or how difficult it would be.  It's a horrible habit. I wonder how many others out there are like me in this way.  When I was younger, I wouldn't bat an eye at anything I'd want.  I'd hop on a plane to go to an audition.  I'd drive to unknown places to for a long shot chance at my dream.  But as I got older, I started focusing more on possible obstacles instead of possible victories.  I hate that.  I miss the younger me who'd just take a running leap into the vast unknown and embrace it while I am flying.  Nike's campaign of JUST DO IT speaks to me, because I find so many excuses not to.  

Just Do It.  

Don't calculate.  Don't make a positive and negative list. 

 Just Do It.  

My Dear, talented writer/actress/super-mom, Friend  suggested this book called "Begin With Yes".  It's a simple book that offers suggestions to get energy moving in your favor by taking action every day. Now, I have believed and studied the law of attraction for a few years now.  But there is something about that title that really speaks to me.  Like "Just Do It".   It has been lovingly brought to my attention by Husband that I usually begin with, "Ehhhhh.  I don't know.   It probably won't work because of x, y and z!".  What a horrible title that would make for a book.  Well, that could have been my biography.  

So these past few weeks I have caught myself with a mouthful of excuses.  I am glad to say that I am acquiring a distaste for them.  I am grateful that I have loving and supportive people in my life like Husband and Dear Friend who will guide me, advise me, and call me on my sh*t stuff.  Though, it is true, Husband has been kindly putting up helping me with this part of myself for years and I didn't really change until Dear Friend stepped in.  Instead I gave Husband excuses for why I was making excuses.  Yeah, I was that bad! 

Last week, I decided to attend an audition in Dallas.  Recently, I have not had positive experiences in this area of my dreams.  As was my modus operandi, I thought of all the ways I couldn't do the gig, be away from family, be near family, and juggle motherhood and career.  Then I stopped myself mid-negative rant and decided to begin with yes.  I went to the audition.  It proved to be a lovely, lovely, lovely experience that renewed my faith in theater folk and myself.  I don't think I will get a call from them this time.  But I do want to pursue future employment with them.  Most of all, I shall continue to begin with yes.  Dr. Wayne Dyer, an author ("Excuses Begone" and many other amazing books) and teacher I deeply respect says, "When you correct your mind, everything else falls into place." I will continue to correct where my thoughts are going and let the rest fall into place.